It took me awhile to realize yesterday that I was depressed, but that is usually what happens – I don’t realize it right away.
What I usually notice first is that I feel extremely lazy – as in I feel like not only can I not do anything, I feel like I will feel that way forever, and that is what disturbs me. Especially when it makes me feel like if I had a job, I wouldn’t be able to do it. Then I get more depressed.
I also get bored, which usually doesn’t happen at all because I have so many different things I want to do, I have trouble fitting it all into one day. But yesterday nothing seemed entertaining.
I’m going to stop there, there’s more to say, but not in a public blog.
Today I got up at 8:30am. Was happy about that. It was my day to play FB games so I did that, although I have to say I’ve cheated a little and played my FB games on off days too, especially yesterday when I was bored. But I put off Millionaire city till today, and then I put a new building in a wrong spot, and was so mad about it I crushed it, losing $6 mil over it, well more than that cos I had to rebuild it which cost $10 mil.
Today I’m going to go hear one of the Venerables (nuns) talk here in Cheney at EWU. I’m not positive which building she is in, but I have a guess. She’ll be talking for an hour. I’m glad she’s coming here, I never go to Spokane for the nun talks anymore, I’m too much of a homebody to make the effort to be gone for hours. (that includes riding bus time & waiting for bus time).
I didn’t go to the library to do the printing I was supposed to do – because of my mood, then I felt worse for not going, I might go today after the talk at noon.
I spent time last night playing Mario Kart Wii, and then trying to write fic, although I didn’t get very far. Actually I tried yesterday morning and it was like I just couldn’t focus on it or figure out what to say – it was frustrating.
I did read more of Fear the Worst yesterday too. Tried to watch Ghost Hunters from Netflix but it was boring me, I might try it again later where I’m NOT doing something on the laptop at the same time.