Category Archives: Cleaning

Not Enough time in the day

Would love to be retired and have all the time in the world because there is so much I want to do and not enough time to do it!

Plus my job is crazy as usual – today wasn’t too bad, I got a high compliment from a customer today so that was nice. Then there was a ‘change’ for the better – something we’re allowed to do again (for months we were no longer allowed, now that we are allowed again, life there will be just slightly easier).

At work I did bring up with some co-workers that agree, there are a few perks to our job, and I have to admit they are a huge reason I have trouble getting motivated to look for other work even though the current one drives me nuts. Perks are – we have a steady schedule. We know when we are going to be at work and we know when we are going to be done (there is the risk of being stuck late, usually no more than a half hour), we always get our days off. We don’t have to worry (I better not jinx things here) about being called into work on our day off or after we’ve gone home. (I’ve seen it happen to supervisors though). They never ask me to show up on Saturday, well actually they will ask everyone through email very occasionally, and usually other people volunteer because they want overtime. I volunteered once because it was for a project that was not our usual work. But they don’t make you show up on your day off. Also we almost always get holidays off such as Labor day, Thanksgiving, 4th of July, Memorial Day, Christmas (without pay) but I like it that I don’t have to worry about being stuck working on a holiday.

Oh I wanted to write more but it’s getting late. Maybe tomorrow. Briefly – today I did some cleaning, I watched Warehouse 13 with my son, I was hoping he’d like it too but he’s not too interested he said it’s too ‘cop show’. I will continue to watch. I like the premise – a secret warehouse of supernatural objects and secret agents need to collect them. Reminds me of Friday the 13th the Series (which had nothing to do with the movies)

Pretty Little Liars season finale was on last night. That show is getting dark. Also, I just read the first book. It’s short. Will read more through the library. The book is pretty close to the show, with little differences. I hear they get quite different from the show though, which makes sense because if they just used the plot from the books, no one would be surprised and there would be no mystery if they already read the books.

I ordered the new download content pack for Mario Kart Wii U, I think it was an advanced purchase so won’t have everything yet, but I will have new racetracks to try, new characters to use, new cars.

So on Netflix, I want to watch/have been watching Pretty little liars, Warehouse 13, Hemlock Grove, The Fosters, maybe watch Orange is the New Black, been watching Arrow with my son, Persons Unknown, Life…

I need to get ready for bed.

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Writing stuff down

Yesterday I discovered librarything.com and was adding a lot of my books to it. Plan to do some more today. Also decided I really need to finish reading a lot of my books that I’ve left hanging. Currently trying to finish the 2nd Frankenstein book since a friend loaned it to me, and a William Slater book that shouldn’t take to long to finish, The Last Universe.

I started playing Paper Mario for the Wii again on Friday.

I had this huge urge to go to Barnes and Noble, and if I had a car I would have just drove over there. Right now I’m thinking of going to Auntie’s bookstore because it’s downtown where the buses stop and wouldn’t take such a huge chunk of my day to go there, plus I could stop at the tea shop downtown too.

Not that I should be buying books I have tons of books to read. But I want to go look. I also decided to order some books I want to try from the library.

I really need to get some cleaning today, already vacuumed and started the dishes, need to get back to the dishes and also need to start laundry.

Started this amazon order just so I can get Oolong tea and then you have to add out stuff so you get free shipping….still working on it

The reason why I suddenly need Oolong tea is Safeway changed the recipe in my favorite iced tea – Oolong peach, and I’m really disappointed. It used to taste fresh brewed and now it tastes very different, probably it’s made from a concentrated powder now. It’s not worth spending my money on, that is for sure. And it used to be so good šŸ˜¦

I watched a couple of episodes of Dominion last week and enjoyed them, but far as I know that’s all that was available on SyFy’s website, so I guess I have to wait awhile for Netflix. (hopefully). I want to try have to have time today to watch something on Netflix, maybe The Fosters or an episode of Pretty Little Liars.

Life!

I see I have a couple new followers, hello and welcome!

I just re-did my lists page, updated it so it’s more accurate. If you’re curious about me I listed things that I like. I will probably add more to it soon.

Today I want to write about work, and goals. I know I’ve written about my desire to have goals and stick to them, well, I still have a long way to go. But I did get some of my cleaning done this weekend and I did just now finish the dishes šŸ™‚ On a Monday night!

Which reminds me, I tend to see these chores as huge mountains I have to climb, even if they aren’t that big of a deal. Like I have to pay these bills tonight, probably will take me 10 minutes or less, but oh gosh they are mountains in my mind and I don’t want to climb them. It’s not that I don’t have the money or I’m attached to the money or I’m not responsible enough to be paying my bills. Nothing like that.

I just don’t like boring chores. Okay, so I’m not special on that am I? But they become these mountains in my mind and I put them off. I still pay my bills on time but sometimes it’s at the very last minute. Oh and then shaving my legs are a mountain too. So are doing dishes, doing laundry, other types of cleaning.

So I want to try think about them differently. I’m going to work on it and if I’m successful I’ll post about it. Of course there are the obvious reasons – apartment will be cleaner, I’ll be more organized and responsible, etc.

Okay – work. Huge struggle. I would love to change it and I need to get motivated enough to actually use my free time to look for other jobs. But that’s probably one of my biggest mountains yet – applying for jobs is SO. NOT. FUN. And it doesn’t result in anything 99% of the time, or actually if you look at the jobs I’ve applied at this year, 100% no results, not even a job interview.

So I’ve been reading this book from the library and it’s really good. Probably one of the best self-help books I’ve read yet. It’s called The Happiness Trap by Russ Harris.

TheHappinessTrap

I just finished reading it on the bus and I highlighted (Kindle highlighting!) some important stuff. Here is the ACT Formula:

Accept your thoughts and feelings and be present.

Connect with your values.

Take effective action.”

Also this is an incredibly important point in the book: “No matter what sort of problematic situation you encounter in life, there are only two sensible courses of action:

      Accept it.
      Take effective action to improve it.”

Soooo. My incredibly difficult job that I will be vague about. It does have some pros – I have some great friends there at work that I look forward to seeing. I get a paycheck, and it’s a Monday-Friday job so I always have weekends off and also I’m almost always done at the same time of the day, and I have evenings off. Also (knock on wood) being called on your time off to suddenly show up to work is unheard of at this job. Which I like a lot. The bus goes real close to my work which is important to me because I no longer own a car, and the job is not in the same city as me.

Cons: Too many to list, plus I’m being vague. I will say I am really underpaid considering the kind of work I do. I face huge frustrations on a daily basis, and my co-workers and I have war stories to tell on a daily basis. Sometimes an hourly basis! That is just too much stress.

I have a lot of trouble accepting the procedures I have to deal with, I think they are terrible, I think they cause myself and many many others involved unending stress and frustration, and there are articles online that verify that the company I am speaking of has a very negative rating with the public. (Then the problem is: I read the articles, my feelings are validated, but then I have to face hard reality at work again, then I get depressed, again)

Anyway, I’ve reached some level of acceptance when I’m there. Sometimes. For a short time. Then one of my triggers happen (very very easy to happen) and I’m all riled up. I’m trying to work on getting less riled up but its hard because I know it’s not just me getting frustrated but the customers and I can’t stand how the customers are being treated. So my everyday life there is a roller coaster. If I manage to have a day that is less stressful than usual I consider myself lucky. Most days are ‘middle days’ that means some crazy stress but some peace as well. Some days you show up and when it rains, IT POURS as in the bad stuff happens all day long and there’s no escape till your 8 hours is left. This is a phenomenon that happens not just with me but with co-workers as well.

So I need to work on two things: Trying to accept MORE. Until I’m gone. And make little goals to find a new job. I have to start little and work myself into it because I know if I try to tackle it all at once I’ll see a big mountain and shy away from it and put it off.

Okay, change of topic: I recently lost my gold crown. Yes my beautiful gold crown that I’ve only had since March. I want to cry. Without that tooth I am having difficulty chewing. I need to get partial dentures very soon, I barely have any chewing teeth on the bottom. In fact there are only two. I still have my front teeth so if I open my mouth people still see teeth. And I still have most of my top teeth. But almost all my bottom chewing teeth are gone now šŸ˜¦

I’m re-reading a Christopher Pike book, Falling, and I might write a brief commentary on it and his writing when I’m done. He’s one of my favorite authors. One thing I want to mention is a re-occurring theme in his books – romantic love that is to the point of being obsessive. Makes me wonder if there is someone he never got over.

Oh and I need to stay off Twitter. At least for a day or two. Got super addicting this weekend with all the Orlando Jones stuff – just go to twitter and if you don’t see an Orlando Jones account there I’d be surprised. I was following and retweeting Orlando Jones accounts like crazy, and they were following me.

Twitter has become like my bar…where I sit down to hang out with friends and chat! And stay up too late quite often. It’s just minus the alcohol.

Time to write some checks and put bills in the mail!

TRAIN MY BRAIN!

That is my motto and motivation today, to train my brain! To have better habits! I just tried to meditate just now and my mind was going a mile a minute, which is unusual for me. Too many things on my mind today, so going to write some of it out.

A lot of it is work related, and my job is very stressful, and my need to relax and unwind at home has become my excuse to procrastinate on other things – like getting the dishes done, doing other important things. I think I do need to allow myself some me time but I want to change how I do it.

Also I was really tempted to have a stiff drink – Hard Mikes – haha – after work to numb myself from the emotional stress and strain from the day, and I’m not an alcoholic, never have been one, but I still felt the need to direct my desire for peace of mind in another direction, and I’m glad I stuck with it. I’m going to try do mantras, meditation, and more quiet time and less addicting internet time (Youtube I need to stay away from you right now!)

I’m not the cleanest person, but I’m not the messiest either. If you walk into my apartment you won’t think you’re in an episode of Hoarders! But for years my excuse to procrastinate on cleaning at home was that I cleaned other people’s homes all day long for a living, and at home, I needed a break from it, which was true. But I don’t do that for a living anymore and now my excuse is my job is hard, I must rest. Which is true, but really, I can handle some cleaning unless I’m extremely drained from my day. I need to make myself do it more often so I can realize it’s not so bad. Also need to try not reacting to how awful my mind is making that chore look (I have this same problem with shaving my legs and no I don’t Ā leave them hairy)

I’m addicted to fun and entertainment, and I have LOTS of entertaining things to do. LOTS. So I feel the need to put things into perspective, allow myself some wind down time but also some responsible adult time. I hope I’m not just saying this and will go back to my regularly slacking off!

I’m glad to say I actually achieved of the few things I wanted to achieve tonight, not all of them but some, and the night is short! Wish it was longer. I will go back to those dishes now and get ready for bed.

Friday

Yesterday mammogram went well! Lots of squeezing of my boobs but they didn’t hurt afterwards. They also did ultrasounds on them, and told me what was in my right breast was most likely a fibroadenoma. They didn’t sound alarmed at all. That’s all I needed to hear! It’s harmless. I’m still getting a needle biopsy in August. The only thing that concerns me is what they found in the left breast, something way in the back, they said it could be a cyst but not sure so they are getting that checked with the needle biopsy too.

After my appointment yesterday I went to the rose garden and walked around, also went into the conservatory and looked at all the plants. Then I went to my favorite ThaiĀ restaurantĀ on my way down the hill and ordered Pad Pak, my favorite meal from them. It’s SOOOO good. I took it home and started watching Six Feet Under while eating. I still have one more episode to watch before I can return the disc.

I really need to get some cleaning done today, and also hoping to write a little as well.

Last night J came home from shopping and showed me his new clothes he bought at thrift stores. He got some nice polo shirts and plaid shirts and a couple of t-shirts – I liked the one with the wings on it.

Got my car back

Got my car back after 1pm, only one motor mount needed to be fixed, and the mechanic said that the vibrating thing the car does is the transmission, so it will still vibrate, and it’s something not worth fixing and the car should still go on for awhile with it doing that. So, my car is in okay shape for running around now.

I got a call from a potential employer this morning and they’d like me to come in and take a test, it’s for a call center so it involves listening to headphones and typing in what I hear. I’m not sure I’ll pass the speed of their test but I’m going to try. Planning on driving in tomorrow. Then I plan to meet Lorin for lunch at Red Lobster, I have a gift card for that place.

What I’m concerned about is getting my weekly job stuff done in time. Tomorrow is Thursday. I attempted to apply for a job today, which included printing out the app at the library and then attempting to handwrite it here, but I goofed up. So now I am thinking of getting a printer tomorrow. Ā I have two applications that need to be typed onto a PDF and printed. You can’t save a PDF and I no longer want to use PDF Escape, it looks pretty bad once printed out. Like a bad fax copy. Ā And I need to be able to print out a cover letter on nice paper too.

So I’m going to be very busy tomorrow. Also need to stop at Fred Meyer while in town and get some groceries. So I’ll have to work on both applications tomorrow in the afternoon. I really prefer to do that sort of thing in the morning, but don’t want to miss my deadline on Friday for making my weekly claim.

So will get up early tomorrow, and work on the cover letters, I can at least save those. And plan to work on the apps, hopefully if I find a printer I like.

My crown came out again. The one I spent $184 to fix. All I did was put a piece of taffy in my mouth, I never chew taffy on that side anymore, but I stuck it in my mouth and it touched the crown and the crown came off.

I’ve been sticking to my goal of cleaning up clutter a half hour a day. Did it watching Eerie Indiana today. Will be harder to find time tomorrow.

I got to go to the library! I got all the books I wanted, the one I want to read the most I’m going to read tonight after my shower. Desert Places by Blake Crouch. I made a request for the library to order Endurance by Jack Kilborn, I also really want to read that one.

Doing dishes tonight, I’ve been doing better at keeping the kitchen cleaner. Watching Hoarders (I watched 2-3 episodes today while doing stuff) makes me want to keep the place clean and organized, even though I’m no where close to a hoarder.

Tuesday, still no car

I thought I was going to get the car back last night, but it wasn’t ready, they said in the morning, well it wasn’t ready in the morning or the rest of the day, even though they said I’d have it back this afternoon. Oh well, I really just want to get to the library and get my new books. Also I missed meditation class again. I fully intended to go if I had my car.

I made my goal of cleaning up clutter for a half hour today. I did it during an episode of Hoarders. I was proud of myself, it was tempting to just get on the computer and goof off, but I did that first (now I’m goofing off, and playing Rune Factory 3 again)

This morning I watched the E3 livestream at 9am – it was a bunch of new Nintendo reveals, including the console which will be called the Wii U. Like I said on twitter, it sounds like a university. The controller is HUGE looks like a little white TV in your hand. Ā I’m thinking it will feel extremely strange, having my hands that far apart holding something that bulky while I play.

But the video conferencing thing looks really cool. I couldĀ conferenceĀ with my nieces and nephews. And the HD graphics look really good. They showed the simulation of a bird flying and the view between branches as it landed, it was highly detailed and realistic. Ā I loved the blossoms that suddenly bloomed all at once on all the trees!

I’m really excited now too to try the Kid Icarus game on the Nintendo 3DS, it looks really cool, especially the Medusa boss. And Mario Kart! The cars will make jumps and hang gliders pop out! And they drive underwater too (which makes no sense). Sigh, so many cool games coming out. I need a job. Here’s my MUST HAVE LIST when they eventually come out:

  1. Paper Mario for 3DS
  2. Zelda for Wii or Wii U
  3. Kid Icarus
  4. Etrian Odyssey!!
  5. Mario Kart for both
And probably Professor Layton too. I was soĀ psychedĀ to see Etrian Odyssey on the list of upcoming 3DS games! Yes!! I’m craving a EO game again and might have to replay one of them.
Today I played some of Rune Factory 3. And watched Six Feet Under, the ep where David picks up a hitchhiker – that was really hard to watch. I just wanted David’s bad day to end! It was pretty much the entire episode.
Watching Hoarders too. I’m still not sure why I watch it when it drives me crazy. Especially when they insist on going thru every bag and box before the stuff can be thrown out. UGH! Although I’m starting to see it a different way, one lady who really insisted on that, said she felt a lot of things had been taken away from her in her life. Still, having to go thru bags and bags of garbage, that’s a bit much. I’d say trust the people who already put the stuff in the bag. Trash is trash.
When I moved from my last apt. to here, I was overwhelmed by how much stuff was in my basement storage shed. We dragged it all upstairs to the living room and it covered the entire room. At first we were going thru some of the boxes, but eventually there were several where I said, “give it to Goodwill” without even looking through it. It takes too much time and energy in my opinion to look through stuff you haven’t used for years anyway.
Oh and yesterday, I believe I did work on my sad vid for a little while.

Monday Post 3 – More goals

I was so frustrated with not being able to put the font back to normal on the other post, going to just make another goal post here.

I made myself clean up some clutter for a half hour today, and decided that is one of my goals for the week, to clean up clutter each day for a half hour, and at least once a week (if I can stick to this) shred the papers that need shredding, and also once a week, file away some papers that need filing (still piled on my floor)

No I’m not a hoarder, but there are several piles of papers laying around. After I get rid of all the paper clutter, I want to work on getting rid of other kinds of clutter, like give away or throw away things I really don’t need.

Like, I’m going to actually give back the library books I’m pretty sure I won’t finish, instead of hanging on to them for the whole month ‘just in case’ And get rid of some clothes I never wear, etc.

I really need to go to the library tomorrow (or today if I have time) and print out my unemployment papers AGAIN as in the logs, I didn’t get to fill in my log on Friday like I usually do because I couldn’t find the extra sheets I had printed out for myself.

Some summer goals: I want to finally finish putting that scrapbook together (will mostly have Supernatural articles, some other newspaper stuff) which will help clear up clutter some more, and clean out the storage shed AGAIN. I did it at Xmas time and I can’t even tell now.

I’m hoping to get that review for Fast done soon, as well as a review for my MP3 player on amazon, and to think up a regular schedule for myself to try stick to, and post it here. So far, I’ve got that half hour of cleaning clutter a day etc. Plus I’ve got Lucky Train in the morning, not giving that up lol, and of course applying for jobs and claiming unemployment. Will try and think of reasonable limits on video games, internet, etc but not ready to commit to anything yet.

Monday post 2 – Goals

By Bahman Farzad at Flickr

Man I have so many things I want to get done and so little time. So here’s my goals for now. Not sure on a time frame, some I want to get done today, some this week, some before the summer is over LOL

Today:

  1. I want to pick up new library books and return ones I’m not going to finish.
  2. Clean up some of the clutter around here, like old junk mail.
  3. Email a friend back – MW
  4. Do some general cleaning.
  5. Make up a planned schedule and see if I can stick to it in the next days
This week:
  1. Finish Six Feet Under disc & write to Spencer again
  2. Send Joanna her postcard
  3. Do something creative like vidding or writing
  4. Read more, play video games and computer games less
  5. Write a review of Fast racing game
  6. Sorry I cannot figure out how to change the font back to normal on this list

Monday post 1- Recent stuff I’ve done

By CubaGallery at Flickr

 

Wow I’m suddenly getting a lot more views on my blog. Not sure why, maybe because I started letting people find it with search engines? Anyway if anyone is really reading this, WELCOME!

I was up till 2am last night goofing off, looking at fandomsecrets at lj, looking at themes here at WordPress, looking at free chapters at amazon. Ergh, I want to stop wasting time but it’s so hard when I have the freedom to do so. Don’t have to be up at a certain time of the morning. The freedom of the day is such a temptatingĀ elixirĀ to me as well. I could be more structured, but I think I have adult attention deficit disorder or something, I have trouble staying focused on one thing for too long, and flit around doing activities, and recreational activities usually win.

Anyway, this weekend was Nashcon in Nashville. Meaning there was a Supernatural convention, and I was on twitter a lot. On Saturday morning, I didn’t have plans to get on twitter till the afternoon, and then Finny sent me an email at FB (lol not a problem btw Finny if you read this) saying that Jared Padalecki (I had to search and make sure I spell that right) who plays Sam on SPN now has a twitter. It has been a long, ongoing thing that both Jensen and Jared did NOT have a twitter. As in it was repeated to us more than once because there are FAKE Jensen and Jared’s on twitter. Anyway, the REAL Jared is @jarpad. I like how it’s nice and short to type. He wasn’t able to use his full name, like @mishacollins, because Jared’s full name was taken, along with his name with 1 & 2 behind it!

So I had to get on twitter that morning to check it out. Ended up staying on twitter for quite awhile. LOL. I was there for Jensen & Jared’s panel and got to read all the tweets of the Q & A’s as they were happening because a lot of ppl tweeted at the con.

I believe I did do the dishes Saturday. Pat called and had J go over for some gardening. I went for a walk after that, it was a beautiful day. I had uploaded a particular library book to my MP3 player, but once on the walk realized I had uploaded tracks from the second disc, not the first, so settled for listening to a Tami Hoag novel I had already but the story bores me so I eventually shut it off.

I walked to this nearby park and past the Hobbit houses. I wondered how many people would be impressed that we have Hobbit type houses in our town. I thought about taking pictures and posting online, but felt it would be an invasion of privacy. I walked past some lilacs and got to smell them.

I sat in the park for awhile, daydreaming of being somewhere in the US & also Vancouver. Someplace with more exciting, landscaped parks. I wondered what it was like to live in certain places.

I went to the store and got raisins for some cookies I haven’t made yet. We’re doing good sticking to our grocery goal, but I’m starting to wish J would pitch in a little more towards the grocery fund. I might bring it up to him.

I watched Bizarre Foods and Dresden files. Saturday I went to bed kinda early, read library books in bed. I think most of the library books I have now I will return without finishing. I want to like them, but they aren’t gripping me. One is a fantasy that is somewhat historical and has a really pretty cover – Thunder At Dawn by Eric Flint & David Drake. But I barely understand what is going on. Then I was reading a horror novel called A Dark Matter by Peter Straub, and even though it has a very interesting concept – a cult guru performs a ceremony that results in bizarre, gruesome murders…it’s actually pretty boring and mostly about some characters I don’t care about. I checked the reviews on amazon and most ppl thought the book was Ā a waste of time. Check amazon if you want to see what I’m talking about.

I’m also reading a fantasy sci-fi that is sort of pro-new age, talks about things my mom likes to talk about, but it’s pretty weird at times and hard to follow. It’s well written though, and has a really pretty cover – here’s the picture I like the blue futuristic city:

I’ll probably try it a few more times.

But yesterday on Sunday I was on amazon trying to find a GOOD horror book and I found a couple authors I want to try, and read the first chapter free of books on amazon. One is Jack Kilborn and the book I want is NOT available at the library so I’ll have to request it. The other author is Blake Crouch and the book I wanted IS at the library so I reserved it. I want to read things that grip me and the first chapters did – Endurance by JK and Desert Places by BC.

I was playing my new Wiiware game Fast and finally unlocked the next set of tracks. It’s a beautiful racing game I spent $10 on and hope to get around to writing a review for it on here, since it’s not like people can go to amazon and write a review, you have to buy it from the Wii shopping channel.

I looked at the Worksource job board today and it’s empty, at least my main section. Ā I’ll probably spend more time searching around tomorrow. I want to make a few entries here in the blog and get some stuff done around the house.

I need to pick up my car today, go to meditation class, and then go to Fred Meyer and be very careful with my spending.