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Life!

I see I have a couple new followers, hello and welcome!

I just re-did my lists page, updated it so it’s more accurate. If you’re curious about me I listed things that I like. I will probably add more to it soon.

Today I want to write about work, and goals. I know I’ve written about my desire to have goals and stick to them, well, I still have a long way to go. But I did get some of my cleaning done this weekend and I did just now finish the dishes 🙂 On a Monday night!

Which reminds me, I tend to see these chores as huge mountains I have to climb, even if they aren’t that big of a deal. Like I have to pay these bills tonight, probably will take me 10 minutes or less, but oh gosh they are mountains in my mind and I don’t want to climb them. It’s not that I don’t have the money or I’m attached to the money or I’m not responsible enough to be paying my bills. Nothing like that.

I just don’t like boring chores. Okay, so I’m not special on that am I? But they become these mountains in my mind and I put them off. I still pay my bills on time but sometimes it’s at the very last minute. Oh and then shaving my legs are a mountain too. So are doing dishes, doing laundry, other types of cleaning.

So I want to try think about them differently. I’m going to work on it and if I’m successful I’ll post about it. Of course there are the obvious reasons – apartment will be cleaner, I’ll be more organized and responsible, etc.

Okay – work. Huge struggle. I would love to change it and I need to get motivated enough to actually use my free time to look for other jobs. But that’s probably one of my biggest mountains yet – applying for jobs is SO. NOT. FUN. And it doesn’t result in anything 99% of the time, or actually if you look at the jobs I’ve applied at this year, 100% no results, not even a job interview.

So I’ve been reading this book from the library and it’s really good. Probably one of the best self-help books I’ve read yet. It’s called The Happiness Trap by Russ Harris.

TheHappinessTrap

I just finished reading it on the bus and I highlighted (Kindle highlighting!) some important stuff. Here is the ACT Formula:

Accept your thoughts and feelings and be present.

Connect with your values.

Take effective action.”

Also this is an incredibly important point in the book: “No matter what sort of problematic situation you encounter in life, there are only two sensible courses of action:

      Accept it.
      Take effective action to improve it.”

Soooo. My incredibly difficult job that I will be vague about. It does have some pros – I have some great friends there at work that I look forward to seeing. I get a paycheck, and it’s a Monday-Friday job so I always have weekends off and also I’m almost always done at the same time of the day, and I have evenings off. Also (knock on wood) being called on your time off to suddenly show up to work is unheard of at this job. Which I like a lot. The bus goes real close to my work which is important to me because I no longer own a car, and the job is not in the same city as me.

Cons: Too many to list, plus I’m being vague. I will say I am really underpaid considering the kind of work I do. I face huge frustrations on a daily basis, and my co-workers and I have war stories to tell on a daily basis. Sometimes an hourly basis! That is just too much stress.

I have a lot of trouble accepting the procedures I have to deal with, I think they are terrible, I think they cause myself and many many others involved unending stress and frustration, and there are articles online that verify that the company I am speaking of has a very negative rating with the public. (Then the problem is: I read the articles, my feelings are validated, but then I have to face hard reality at work again, then I get depressed, again)

Anyway, I’ve reached some level of acceptance when I’m there. Sometimes. For a short time. Then one of my triggers happen (very very easy to happen) and I’m all riled up. I’m trying to work on getting less riled up but its hard because I know it’s not just me getting frustrated but the customers and I can’t stand how the customers are being treated. So my everyday life there is a roller coaster. If I manage to have a day that is less stressful than usual I consider myself lucky. Most days are ‘middle days’ that means some crazy stress but some peace as well. Some days you show up and when it rains, IT POURS as in the bad stuff happens all day long and there’s no escape till your 8 hours is left. This is a phenomenon that happens not just with me but with co-workers as well.

So I need to work on two things: Trying to accept MORE. Until I’m gone. And make little goals to find a new job. I have to start little and work myself into it because I know if I try to tackle it all at once I’ll see a big mountain and shy away from it and put it off.

Okay, change of topic: I recently lost my gold crown. Yes my beautiful gold crown that I’ve only had since March. I want to cry. Without that tooth I am having difficulty chewing. I need to get partial dentures very soon, I barely have any chewing teeth on the bottom. In fact there are only two. I still have my front teeth so if I open my mouth people still see teeth. And I still have most of my top teeth. But almost all my bottom chewing teeth are gone now 😦

I’m re-reading a Christopher Pike book, Falling, and I might write a brief commentary on it and his writing when I’m done. He’s one of my favorite authors. One thing I want to mention is a re-occurring theme in his books – romantic love that is to the point of being obsessive. Makes me wonder if there is someone he never got over.

Oh and I need to stay off Twitter. At least for a day or two. Got super addicting this weekend with all the Orlando Jones stuff – just go to twitter and if you don’t see an Orlando Jones account there I’d be surprised. I was following and retweeting Orlando Jones accounts like crazy, and they were following me.

Twitter has become like my bar…where I sit down to hang out with friends and chat! And stay up too late quite often. It’s just minus the alcohol.

Time to write some checks and put bills in the mail!

Mammogram

Today is my mammogram in Spokane, it’s a diagnostic one so they’ll be telling me more about the lumps in my right breast.  I gotta leave in 45 minutes, leaving a little early because of potential traffic jams on the way to Spokane.

This mammogram is paid for. I was told wrong when I went to Planned Parenthood (I went there because I knew I could get a free woman’s exam. I did leave a donation though LOL) Anyway the woman said I could get a free ASSESSMENT with my referral, but would still have to pay for the mammogram. So I put it off! Then after talking to my family I decided to give the place a call, and see if I could find out what options were available to me, and turns out the mammogram is completely covered financially.

This morning I was thinking I really need to limit how much time I go to Tumblr. Because I have no discipline or control. So, for now I’m thinking up to an hour and a half, two days a week. For now I’ll say Mondays and Thursdays (but not this Thursday I was on it plenty yesterday)

I might still go briefly other days just to post something if I think of something I really want to post right away.

I need to cut down on twitter too, but I still will probably check in during the mornings. It makes job searching more bearable. I’m not sure what/how to cut down other than to be off it more in the evenings.

Last night I was reading this fic that is so well written it makes me wish I could write well. Maybe if I dedicated more time to it I could get better? I want to be able to contribute to the Destiel community.

I’m currently reading a paperback I bought at the library book sale called Twisted by Andrea Kane. It’s good.

I want to practice my Buddhism more too, but I need to think on how to accomplish this, I’m terrible at sticking to things.

Yesterday J walked to Ben Franklin because he wanted to buy himself some clay for sculpting. I saw him making a communicator (Star Trek) 🙂

Tuesday, still no car

I thought I was going to get the car back last night, but it wasn’t ready, they said in the morning, well it wasn’t ready in the morning or the rest of the day, even though they said I’d have it back this afternoon. Oh well, I really just want to get to the library and get my new books. Also I missed meditation class again. I fully intended to go if I had my car.

I made my goal of cleaning up clutter for a half hour today. I did it during an episode of Hoarders. I was proud of myself, it was tempting to just get on the computer and goof off, but I did that first (now I’m goofing off, and playing Rune Factory 3 again)

This morning I watched the E3 livestream at 9am – it was a bunch of new Nintendo reveals, including the console which will be called the Wii U. Like I said on twitter, it sounds like a university. The controller is HUGE looks like a little white TV in your hand.  I’m thinking it will feel extremely strange, having my hands that far apart holding something that bulky while I play.

But the video conferencing thing looks really cool. I could conference with my nieces and nephews. And the HD graphics look really good. They showed the simulation of a bird flying and the view between branches as it landed, it was highly detailed and realistic.  I loved the blossoms that suddenly bloomed all at once on all the trees!

I’m really excited now too to try the Kid Icarus game on the Nintendo 3DS, it looks really cool, especially the Medusa boss. And Mario Kart! The cars will make jumps and hang gliders pop out! And they drive underwater too (which makes no sense). Sigh, so many cool games coming out. I need a job. Here’s my MUST HAVE LIST when they eventually come out:

  1. Paper Mario for 3DS
  2. Zelda for Wii or Wii U
  3. Kid Icarus
  4. Etrian Odyssey!!
  5. Mario Kart for both
And probably Professor Layton too. I was so psyched to see Etrian Odyssey on the list of upcoming 3DS games! Yes!! I’m craving a EO game again and might have to replay one of them.
Today I played some of Rune Factory 3. And watched Six Feet Under, the ep where David picks up a hitchhiker – that was really hard to watch. I just wanted David’s bad day to end! It was pretty much the entire episode.
Watching Hoarders too. I’m still not sure why I watch it when it drives me crazy. Especially when they insist on going thru every bag and box before the stuff can be thrown out. UGH! Although I’m starting to see it a different way, one lady who really insisted on that, said she felt a lot of things had been taken away from her in her life. Still, having to go thru bags and bags of garbage, that’s a bit much. I’d say trust the people who already put the stuff in the bag. Trash is trash.
When I moved from my last apt. to here, I was overwhelmed by how much stuff was in my basement storage shed. We dragged it all upstairs to the living room and it covered the entire room. At first we were going thru some of the boxes, but eventually there were several where I said, “give it to Goodwill” without even looking through it. It takes too much time and energy in my opinion to look through stuff you haven’t used for years anyway.
Oh and yesterday, I believe I did work on my sad vid for a little while.

Monday post 1- Recent stuff I’ve done

By CubaGallery at Flickr

 

Wow I’m suddenly getting a lot more views on my blog. Not sure why, maybe because I started letting people find it with search engines? Anyway if anyone is really reading this, WELCOME!

I was up till 2am last night goofing off, looking at fandomsecrets at lj, looking at themes here at WordPress, looking at free chapters at amazon. Ergh, I want to stop wasting time but it’s so hard when I have the freedom to do so. Don’t have to be up at a certain time of the morning. The freedom of the day is such a temptating elixir to me as well. I could be more structured, but I think I have adult attention deficit disorder or something, I have trouble staying focused on one thing for too long, and flit around doing activities, and recreational activities usually win.

Anyway, this weekend was Nashcon in Nashville. Meaning there was a Supernatural convention, and I was on twitter a lot. On Saturday morning, I didn’t have plans to get on twitter till the afternoon, and then Finny sent me an email at FB (lol not a problem btw Finny if you read this) saying that Jared Padalecki (I had to search and make sure I spell that right) who plays Sam on SPN now has a twitter. It has been a long, ongoing thing that both Jensen and Jared did NOT have a twitter. As in it was repeated to us more than once because there are FAKE Jensen and Jared’s on twitter. Anyway, the REAL Jared is @jarpad. I like how it’s nice and short to type. He wasn’t able to use his full name, like @mishacollins, because Jared’s full name was taken, along with his name with 1 & 2 behind it!

So I had to get on twitter that morning to check it out. Ended up staying on twitter for quite awhile. LOL. I was there for Jensen & Jared’s panel and got to read all the tweets of the Q & A’s as they were happening because a lot of ppl tweeted at the con.

I believe I did do the dishes Saturday. Pat called and had J go over for some gardening. I went for a walk after that, it was a beautiful day. I had uploaded a particular library book to my MP3 player, but once on the walk realized I had uploaded tracks from the second disc, not the first, so settled for listening to a Tami Hoag novel I had already but the story bores me so I eventually shut it off.

I walked to this nearby park and past the Hobbit houses. I wondered how many people would be impressed that we have Hobbit type houses in our town. I thought about taking pictures and posting online, but felt it would be an invasion of privacy. I walked past some lilacs and got to smell them.

I sat in the park for awhile, daydreaming of being somewhere in the US & also Vancouver. Someplace with more exciting, landscaped parks. I wondered what it was like to live in certain places.

I went to the store and got raisins for some cookies I haven’t made yet. We’re doing good sticking to our grocery goal, but I’m starting to wish J would pitch in a little more towards the grocery fund. I might bring it up to him.

I watched Bizarre Foods and Dresden files. Saturday I went to bed kinda early, read library books in bed. I think most of the library books I have now I will return without finishing. I want to like them, but they aren’t gripping me. One is a fantasy that is somewhat historical and has a really pretty cover – Thunder At Dawn by Eric Flint & David Drake. But I barely understand what is going on. Then I was reading a horror novel called A Dark Matter by Peter Straub, and even though it has a very interesting concept – a cult guru performs a ceremony that results in bizarre, gruesome murders…it’s actually pretty boring and mostly about some characters I don’t care about. I checked the reviews on amazon and most ppl thought the book was  a waste of time. Check amazon if you want to see what I’m talking about.

I’m also reading a fantasy sci-fi that is sort of pro-new age, talks about things my mom likes to talk about, but it’s pretty weird at times and hard to follow. It’s well written though, and has a really pretty cover – here’s the picture I like the blue futuristic city:

I’ll probably try it a few more times.

But yesterday on Sunday I was on amazon trying to find a GOOD horror book and I found a couple authors I want to try, and read the first chapter free of books on amazon. One is Jack Kilborn and the book I want is NOT available at the library so I’ll have to request it. The other author is Blake Crouch and the book I wanted IS at the library so I reserved it. I want to read things that grip me and the first chapters did – Endurance by JK and Desert Places by BC.

I was playing my new Wiiware game Fast and finally unlocked the next set of tracks. It’s a beautiful racing game I spent $10 on and hope to get around to writing a review for it on here, since it’s not like people can go to amazon and write a review, you have to buy it from the Wii shopping channel.

I looked at the Worksource job board today and it’s empty, at least my main section.  I’ll probably spend more time searching around tomorrow. I want to make a few entries here in the blog and get some stuff done around the house.

I need to pick up my car today, go to meditation class, and then go to Fred Meyer and be very careful with my spending.

New browser

The day before yesterday, I was really having trouble with Internet Explorer. It kept freezing up on me. Yesterday I tried to update it and the computer said I couldn’t, something was missing.

Not only had IE been freezing, it was having trouble scrolling and being really slow. So I decided to try Google Chrome and I like it a lot. Your new tab page can be customized to have a pretty background with apps that you pick out on it, and my favorites bar (which is called bookmarks) is taking the place of my old Yahoo Toolbar (GC couldn’t use Yahoo Toolbar) and it looks better actually. I’ll print screen sometime and post a pic. Anyway, Google Chrome works really fast, I like it.

Yesterday I spent to much time playing around, getting new apps, going to YB (www.myyearbook.com) where I haven’t been to in forever,  to play Carniball, 3 Point Shootout, and Find It. Brings back memories LOL.

I also got a new thingy for using Twitter, called Twimbow, and you have to get an invite for that. I got an invite from a stranger that I added. I was also using Tweetdeck and just plain twitter to tweet yesterday. Twimbow is colorful looking and one advantage is you can have a search list on the right side, I typed in Supernatural, and that word gets a lot of tweets. I actually made two new friends yesterday doing that, commenting on their tweets. Well for sure I think one friend.

I have to get used to clicking on tabs at the top now, rather than clicking different windows on the bottom like I always did with IE.

Yesterday I tried Glee because I saw people were tweeting about the season finale. I couldn’t get into it, too much singing and the characters weren’t interesting to me, but I might give it another try because it has more than one gay couple on the show. This was on instant Netflix BTW.

Also tried Sherlock which suddenly showed up in Instant Netflix but it wasnt keeping my interest either. So I switched to Twin Peaks, but that show is just weird and sorta pointless now that they’ve solved Laura’s murder. I still watch every now and then because I like the characters.

Also watched the House Finale last night (I was at meditation class in Spokane Monday night). WOW they really went all out on the Season finale, as in big shock factor, not sure how they can even work next season after what happened!

On Monday I applied for one job that wasn’t FT, yesterday on FT job, I really hope I find more FT that I qualify for so I get my benefits from unemployment. I got a letter in the mail saying I will get a payment this week (I think)

Oh on Monday after meditation class, I went to Fred Meyer and got a new laptop cooler. It was interesting, I went to electronics, and the workers looked all over and said sorry, they didn’t think they had any more. Then I went over to the magazines and the woman chased after me with one, saying she found one! I was so happy! I had been debating in my head whether to bother with FM or not after class, and now I’m glad I went. I also got vitamins, because we no longer drink Boost (and I miss it sooo bad!)

I will probably take the car to the mechanic today and see what he says about it.

I need to look up jobs.

Last night I was starting a new, sad vid for SPN. I kept hearing this song in my MP3 player and seeing Castiel’s sad eyes at Dean’s. Also was editing first chapter of a fic I’m writing, I got it back from a beta and was making the corrections, but I am hesitant to get rid of a couple of sentences she crossed out. Might have to get a second opinion. Did I mention I was up till 2am doing that stuff? I think I need another cup of coffee.